Extension of You

Silver

February

Gintama episode: 99

I started new hormone medication on 2.02, and strange things are happening to me, but maybe it's just the aftermath of my illness. My bones ache, maybe they're growing. Long time no see, eh?

I had my first university exams, I don't have all my grades yet, but it's okay. I expected not to meet my own expectations. In the meantime, I'm working hard on many things, writing a lot with my friend, drawing, coding and learning languages in my spare time.

Before the session, I started taking my first analogue photos and I think analogue photography will stay with me for the rest of my life. At university, we have a huge darkroom, which is amazing and sooo peaceful. I spent several hours there the night before handing in all my work, but I managed to get something done. I had more mishaps and failed films, more money down the drain than successes, but how could it be otherwise when I have two broken cameras and not much skill to work around it. I hope that next semester I will be able to do something I will be really happy with, after all, it will be work for the end-of-year exhibition. I also have an outdoor painting session coming up in the spring, which I am looking forward to.

Today I played Minecraft with a friend, oh how I long for Minecraft. We built a café connected to a publishing house.

I miss my free time, I could fill my days until the end of my life, time flies so quickly. I stay positive every day, I just need more sun and warmth.

Oh, and I posted my animation on yt. Here's link, it you want to see. Nothing special, but I'll share.

7.02.2025

Don’t allow the light to dim.

cut

Today I spent the whole day animating a short film.

My mom was at IKEA and bought me a monitor stand and bedding. You can't see much in the photo, but I wanted to show you just a little bit anyway.

19.02.2025

COYOTE

Im angry now, this anger is not violent. It’s like a parade and I don’t think many will understand what I am trying to say. Don’t fool yourself into thinking you are.

I let my ambition consume me, I want to be consumed and devoured. Since I won’t be held kindly.

Obviously I love, I thrive loving and taking care of someone. I love only people who need to be loved, not people who return it.

And you get used to this, obviously, you get patient, obviously, you lose hope, obviously. I fear that insanity creeps into my door. It’s night im especially not meant to be heard at night. Well, nobody is listening. All those layers of silence on silence.

Right now moment of giving up rationality, I want to live creating. Nothing else, everything else suffocates me, rips me apart. Mundane desires rips me apart, I know I can’t think about love. I can’t, I shouldn’t. Im lonely, just a lonely man. Who can’t even speak properly. I wish I would just settle for ordinary, but I love everything that is beyond that.

Im gonna study, study and create, burn, so my mind will shut up properly.

It's funny. Thats all i have to offer.

100 Questions for Webmasters

Source

10.01.2025

1. Please introduce yourself.: I use many names and nicknames, call me whatever. Hi, welcome.
2. How long have you been making websites?: About a year now.
3. And what got you into the hobby?: I learned about Neocities from this video. I was very ill last year, because I had a lot of free time, I learned how to code.
4. What kind of website are you most interested in?: Mostly blogs from Neocities, and webrings.
5. What's your workflow? Do you plan your websites out thoroughly or do you come up with the design as you go along?: I sketch the layout in procreate, then spend hours just experimenting and figuring out how to bring what’s in my mind to life.
6. Please link to your biggest inspirations.: I find inspiration in countless things. I have links to cool sites on my links & resources page

Also here's a link to a good essay.
7. What's your favourite part about making websites?: I have a place devoted entirely to myself, where I can speak of my interests endlessly, my passion knows no restraint. And finding people who share the same interests brings me joy. Webrings, fanlistings...seeing someone linking my button.
8. And the thing you struggle with the most?: Lack of time.
9. Do you keep the same layout on all of your pages? Or do you use different ones?: I use diffrent ones.
10. How confident are you with CSS?: Decently.
11. Do you know how to correctly use <dl>?: I guess.
12. What is your favourite HTML element?: Table
13. If you're making a new web page from scratch, what is the first thing you do?: Copy cut filter wwwww.
14. Do you know JavaScript?: A little, enough to edit simple things.
15. How about PHP?: No
16. Does your website have a theme that you stick to?: Green...
17. Are you more focused on content or design?: Equally, maybe more on the design side.
18. Do you own a domain name? If not, would you ever want to?: No, maybe.
19. What do you think of nostalgia-focused or "retro" websites?: Oh, love...

Well, just look at my website.
20. Is your HTML valid? Do you even check?: Don't think it is, but eeh.
21. What are your opinion on buttons and banners?: :)
22. What do you think of button walls in particular?: It depends on the context. As a resource, it’s great. If it’s something displayed on a website, it should be done tastefully. But I don’t have strong opinions; what matters most is that you have fun.
23. If you started over again, would you make something similar or completely different?: Mm, yes and no. I like hella complex stuff.
24. Are you envious of other people's websites?: Websites, no. I don't feel jealousy in any aspect of life. The only thing, I just would like to be better myself.
25. What text editor do you use?: codepen.io
26. Why do you use that one?: I’m used to working in a browser, having started coding on Neocities. Naturally, I wanted to find a place that wouldn't lag so much, because with a large amount of code, Neocities stopped working for me. I also wanted to be able to see the results right away, because I'm still a beginner and I have to keep an eye on things.
27. Do you host your image files on your web server, or on another host?: I use https://filegarden.com & https://freeimage.host

Ultimately, I want to host my own images because I want everything to work even if their servers go down.
28. This might not be relevant to you, but what's your opinion on the Neocities vs. Nekoweb debate?: First time hearing about such thing. Just have fun guys.
29. How much server space would you estimate your main website takes up?: Not much, it's mostly text.
30. Do you keep local backups of your files?: I always keep backup.
31. Do you prefer simple or highly visual websites?: Both
32. Do you stick to certain colours? Do you do that on purpose, or is it your subconscious?: Subdued, washed-out colors, usually in shades of green. Consciously and subconsciously.
33. Have you ever thought about quitting? Why?: Not really.
34. Do you have many webmaster friends, or is it a solitary hobby?: Unfortunately, a solitary hobby

I am delighted when I meet someone from my country here.
35. Do people in your real life know about your website?: It depends.

One is me in real life, one is me privately. I don't let many people get close to me, so I never give out the link to the site directly. I don't hide my site, it's just that hardly anyone cares about it. And if someone does care enough, they'll find it.
36. Do you update your website very often? How often is "very often"?: Hmhm, again, it depends.

Time and motivation vary, but usually once a month I have a week where I do something every day, and then I don't touch it for several weeks.
37. And the overall design, do you change that much? Why or why not?: Don't have enough time to do so, but I enjoy rearranging things.
38. Is your website more you-focused, hobby-focused, or outside world-focused?: Hobby-focused.
39. Do you do web design professionally?: No
40. If not, would you like to? And if you're comfortable answering, what do you do for work?: I study Graphic Design at the Academy of Fine Arts.

As for what I would like to do, well, study my whole life. I would like to never have to worry about money, just gain knowledge and create in every sense of the word.
41. Do you communicate with people by email very much?: A bit.
42. Some people reject social media and use websites as a replacement. Do you keep social media outside of your website?: I'm kind of forced to if I want to make money from my art. I hate social media, my website was a substitute, but unfortunately I had to go back to Instagram.
43. How about instant messengers? Do you use a mainstream one like Discord or Telegram? Or something like Matrix? Do you avoid them?: Discord is my main messenger, I love Discord. My nickname is: imbirowe.

In my country, everyone uses Messenger from Facebook, which I hate and avoid as much as possible.
44. Do you listen to music while you work on websites? If so, what kinds of artists?: Yup, Susumu Hirasawa. If these words do not suffice, here is my spotify link.
45. Do you keep everything you make on one website, or do you have more than one?: If I do something outside I would probably link it here anyway.
46. On a similar note, do you keep to one topic on your site, or many?: Many.
47. Do you present your real self, or at least try? Or do you construct a persona on purpose?: I don't know where the real me is, if anywhere, it is probably here. My best friend helps me a lot to figure out where I am; I feel most like myself when talking to him.
48. Have you ever made a good friend thanks to your website?: Kinda? Moots, for sure. I always remember when someone mentions my website somewhere.
49. Are you happy with the way HTML and CSS currently work?: I don't have enough knowledge to know how else it could work, so probably, yes.
50. What are practices that you think people should avoid?: ?
51. What about under-utilised practices, or things you think people should do more?: ?
52. Do you use a lot of semantic HTML? Or are you guilty of generic structure?: I do.
53. Do you consider different browsers?: No
54. Speaking of, what's your preferred browser? Convince your readers why they should use it.: Opera GX
55. And what OS are you on?: Windows, macOS, SteamOS(Linux). A man of broad horizons, huh?
56. Do you have a strong opinion on that, or do you just happen to use it?: I like them all, each has its own pros and cons.
57. Are your websites mobile-friendly?: No
58. What are your thoughts on autoplay?: I don't like it.
59. What are your thoughts on webrings? Are you in any?: I love webrings sm, I am, I am, of course!
60. Do you have any web shrines? What do you like to see in that sort of page?: Not yet, but I plan to, one day.
61. Are your websites "cliche", in your opinion?: There’s no such thing, it’s just a matter of personal preference. As for me, I’m not fond of overly pink sites; I’ve seen far too many.
62. What is your ideal website? Are you striving for that, or for something else?: Smth really complex...
63. Are you an artist? Do you draw or design your own assets?: Yes, and yes.
64. What are your favourite resource sites?: Resources page.
65. Is there a habit you just can't get away from no matter how hard you try?: Mmm..
66. What's your biggest advice for a new webmaster?: You’re doing well, keep going. It’s worth it.
67. Do you keep all your styling in CSS? Or do you hard-code some?: Both :p
68. What do you think of frameset layouts?: I use them.
69. How about table-based layouts?: I use them, sometimes.
70. Do you subscribe to the ideas of "one-column", "two-column" and "three-column" layouts? Do you use any of these?: Used it once i think? I usually stick with frame layouts.
71. Do you spend longer on the HTML or the CSS?: I spend longer looking for blinkies.
72. Have you ever made a page with no CSS? It's useful for your thoughts.: No...don't say such scary things.
73. Do you ever find yourself making layouts with nothing to put on them? Or do you only make layouts when the need arises?: Yes wwww
74. Would you consider yourself a beginner? Or advanced? Somewhere in the middle?: I know nothing, I am made of glass and I have wings. Glad to help, but will cry over jumping a#.

Beginner.
75. Do you have a habit of looking at the source code of websites you visit?: Habit? No. Although I like to peek when something catches my attention. "Woah, how?:0"
76. How did YOU learn how to make websites?: Fucked around for 100+ hours for the first prototype, try and fail, mosty fail wwww.
77. Do you ever force elements to do things they're not supposed to?: :P
78. Thoughts on floating elements?: No thoughts, if it works - it works.
79. When you're sizing stuff, what do you use first? Do you use px, em, %, or something else?: px, then %.
80. Do you have a favourite font?: Im a graphic designer, don't ask me that.
81. Would you run a website with another person? How would that work?: Yes, yes! Only with someone close, and how would that work depends on the other side.
82. Do you surf the Web to find new personal websites very often?: Yes, yes.
83. Do you bookmark other people's websites? How would you feel knowing someone else bookmarked yours?: Yes, and :0.
84. What do you want people to be most impressed with when they see your website?: Ete, the amount of work put into it?
85. Are you interested in technology outside of websites? Do you collect?: Hell yes I am! Broadly defined electronic equipment, mainly related to video games. I have the following consoles: NEW 3ds LL; Nintendo Lite & Steamdeck. I also have a PC with an XBOX controller and a laptop.

I plan to buy a lot of things, someday I will make a dedicated shrine.
86. How often and for how long are you online?: As much as I can, mostly in the evenings and at night.
87. When it comes to your website, who is your target audience?: No one? All foreign travelers staying in Eden.

I would be happy if someone close took more interest, then I would create more and with that person in mind. It would be great to create a shrine for something we both love.
88. Have you ever been interested in XHTML?: No
89. Do you program in general? Have you ever written a program for use with or on your website, not counting simple JavaScript?: Not really.
90. Speaking of programs that help you make websites, what do you think of static site generators (SSGs)? Have you ever used one?: I don't know what it is.
91. Do you keep a hitcounter? Why or why not?: I do, it's cool.
92. Do you frequent forums? Which ones?: Nope
93. Do you write your page content directly into the editor, or do you prepare it elsewhere, like a text document or a Word document?: Editor.
94. Do you think you appear cool to others? A more accurate answer now: do other people ever say you're cool?: For the general public: niche nerdiness is cool, unless you're too niche and too nerdy. There comes a point where people just don't know what you're talking about, they have no way of appreciating what you like.

In short, no.
95. Are you embarrassed of your old work? Have you ever deleted everything out of shame?: I think it's quite normal to be ashamed of your old work, yes. However, I don't have strong feelings about my old work, I don't throw it away, I don't destroy it, I archive it. It's just part of the journey, the amount of bad work has allowed me to create better now.
96. Would you close down your website if you couldn't update it, or would you leave an archive?: Leave an archive
97. Do you reveal a lot about yourself on your website? Or are you more secretive?: Since I feel that no one will see or read this, there is not much stopping me. As I mentioned, this is one of the places where I can be closest to who I really am. Despite this, I am still a private person, so I reveal mostly insignificant things. If I do pour out some problem here, I never write about specifics, only how I feel.

To tell you the truth, speaking is difficult for me.
98. Are you willing to reveal who your best online friend is, and/or if they have a website?: My best friend doesn't use social media much, he has a Tumblr and sometimes checks Instagram. I think if I asked him, he wouldn't mind me linking to him here.

He doesn't have a website, but I encourage him to start a blog because he's a great speaker and writer, and I would help him with the technical side of things.
99. And do you optimise the images on your website?: Throw pixelate effect on them.
100. We're out of time! How do you feel after answering 100 questions? ....other than exhausted.: I like answering questions, gives me a reason to talk :)

On the Precipice of Defeat

November.

26.11.2025

This month I came of age. I got a lot of great things for my birthday, two Witcher games from a friend, a compendium of knowledge about coding and video game design and Moleskine notebook. My colleague from high school even came to visit me at university.

Hmm, there are so many games I’d really like to play soon. At 18, I’m discovering Souls games for the first time. It started with Bloodborne and now Dark Souls, not forgetting Skyrim along the way, of course. I haven’t had a chance to play yet, so we’ll see if I’ll be just as excited once I get my ass kicked. What I’m most eager to play is Bloodborne, but since I don’t have a PlayStation, I’ll have to emulate it. There’s a song on the soundtrack I discovered today called “Moon Presence,” it’s so goooood.

I’m also saving up for a Steam Deck. Maybe I’ll get it; I’ve been trying to buy one for two years. Theoretically, I have the money, but it’s not easy to decide on such an expense.

In the meantime, I’m trying to get the last two achievements in Hades. I managed to transfer my save file from Epic to Steam, which makes it much easier now.

I haven’t had much time lately. I attend an art university, and practical classes can last from morning till night. I still can’t get used to the lack of time; I want to do so many things. Most of my life, I’ve been looking for ways to fill my time to the maximum so that I don’t have a single free moment to think. I hated being alone for long periods because my own presence overwhelmed me.

However, that changed during summer break. For the first time in my life, I had so much free time, and I now look back on it with an incredible amount of longing. Suddenly, I wanted free time, and just as suddenly, it was taken away.

November was a month of good movies; I watched a lot with my friend. Vampire Hunter D: Bloodlust and Angel’s Egg are my favourites, but we also saw The Nightmare Before Christmas, and now we’re watching Pirates of the Caribbean. I’m so glad I had the opportunity to watch Angel’s Egg with him. Yoshitaka Amano’s work always manages to captivate me. AHAHA Im sooo normal about this film.

I’m also taking my colleague to the cinema since it’s coming out 4K remastered in December.

I bought the cutest keychain in the world.

Annnd Peak with friend.

I’ve been drawing a lot, and that’s about it.

28.11.2025

Song for today (click me)

My friend showed me Skyrim in the last few days. LOOK!

Kill a boy's mother, and vengeance festers in the son...

(Zabij matkę chłopca, a zemsta będzie trawić syna... od środka...)

I also started playing Expedition 33, and this game completely caught me off guard. I only heard about it because of this year’s GOTY. The story grabbed me instantly, and the way the world is presented is amazing. So far, I’ve only played for about an hour, so I’ll keep giving updates. My PC couldn't handle this game at all, I only have 8GB of RAM, so it crashed the moment I actually started the expedition XD.

Here are my thoughts so far: The music is phenomenal, and I feel like it’s only going to get better. I also like the combat style — from what I’ve heard, it ramps up a lot, it’s dynamic, supposedly even revolutionary in some way, so I can’t wait to experience that and see for myself. The character faces bothered me a bit, probably because I set the graphics to the lowest possible so my PC could handle it. They looked uncanny. Well, I also don’t play many 3D games with semi-realistic character styles, so maybe I’m just not used to it. Because of the low graphics settings there were also clipping elements, eh.

The romance shown the beginning didn’t sit right with me. Romance rarely works for me anyway. It felt empty, typical, cliché. Bumping into each other, starting to talk at the same time - which my friend pointed out. I kept catching myself thinking in the back of my mind- “LET ME GO SAVE THE WORLD ALREADY, COME ON.”

One more thing I noticed: I don’t really see any sign of his grief. Maybe it was intentional, and they didn’t want to show it right away out of fear it might push players away early on. Or maybe he’s repressing it. Third option: I simply haven’t played enough yet and it all develops later, in that case, forgive me.

Anyway. I fully intend to finish this game because I’m fascinated by the concept.

I also ordered a Steam Deck. There was a -20% discount for Black Week, and I went with the LCD model, saving around $300. I originally planned to take the OLED 512GB version, but I sat there for a long time thinking, “Do I really need this?” No, I don’t. I also have the worst version of the Switch and I’m happy with it, and if someday I feel the need to and have the money, I’ll switch to OLED. A big expense like $711 would honestly make me regret it, and now I paid $415.

I can’t wait for it to arrive.

One last thing, a little memory from my university. I left class early and didn’t want to waste the paints, so I walked around people like an NPC asking, “Want a color?”

Are you going to reject the darkness?

High Minded Castle

5.12.2025

December.

Niech wiatr odnowy poniesie was na skraj ziemi.

The Steamdeck arrived, I waited longer than I would have liked (GLS in Poland is...something). It's great, I'm happy about the silly option to change the wallpaper to my favourite artist. I got a large memory card and can finally play Expedition 33 in bed. I'll take good care of it. It's winter, so when I put it through its paces with demanding games, it keeps me warm.

I dreamt about a former friend recently, and I considered it a nightmare. Since then, I've felt the need to talk to him. However, he has exams this year, and I don't want to disturb him. Let him pass without any worries. And I shouldn't contact him again anyway.

I also did some animation yesterday.

25/26 O grant unto me my mouth that I may speak therewith; and that I may follow my heart when it passes through the fire and darkness.

I always feel bad in winter; the neurons responsible for rationality have frozen.

I am living the life I wanted, one of the lives I wanted, isn't that so? So why does reality suddenly seem like exile? I should never have admitted to human desires in the first place, now they are following me again. I don't deserve humanity.

10.12.2025

I've caught a cold and am sitting at home sick. The exam period is coming up. Last weekend's convention was great. The convention, for the first time, didn't ruin the organization, there were enough volunteers, and the crowd was very well distributed. I spent too much money, I still can't manage it, I regret it.

I play Expedition 33, I'd like to do it without any worries in the world. Just be able to sink into it for hours and nothing else. The soundtrack is phenomenal, I love every inch of it. I'm starting to get the hang of parrying attacks, damn, it's so good.

12.12.2025

That day was so fantastic and amazing that I have to tell you about it. I received a package from my dear friend and I couldn't be happier. It's the first time in a very long time that someone has devoted so much time and thought to me, the first time that someone has remembered the little things I say in order to make me happy - and not the other way around. It's not the first time, because he does it all the time, he's just the first person to do it. I received many things, each of them backed by thought, and I know it. He also told me something very important today, but I'll stop here. I'm also preparing a package for him, but it will take me a while to finish it. When I'm rational, like today, I love reality. Clair Obscur won Game Of The Year 2025, I'm happy.

“For those who come after!”

Artists

Marjorie Miller

Marjorie Miller is very little known, I barely found some fragmentary information. It's a miracle that we even know when she was born and when she passed away. She illustrated children's books, created posters, and worked for magazines, somewhat in the Art Deco style.

Aleksandr Kosteckij

wip

Kay Nielsen

wip

Arthur Rackham

wip

Alfons Mucha

wip

John Atkinson Grimshaw

wip

Yoshitaka Amano

wip

My Favourite Characters in Media

wip

Things I want to do, one day

wip

1. Study

Graphics (right now, yay!)

Cartography

Philosophy

Classical philology

Sinology

Art conservation

Sociology

Archaeology

Set design

Japanese studies

Piloting an aeroplane

2. Languages

English certificate C1/C2

Japanese

Chinese

Latin

Greek

French

Spanish

German

3. Travel

Japan trip with my best friend, gods please.

Prague, also with my friendooo

China, guess what, also wwwww

Egypt, just not alone

Small Beskid Trail in Poland, hiking (140 km) Probably alone, I don't want to put anyone through that wwwww

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Silver

February

Gintama episode: 99

I started new hormone medication on 2.02, and strange things are happening to me, but maybe it's just the aftermath of my illness. My bones ache, maybe they're growing. Long time no see, eh?

I had my first university exams, I don't have all my grades yet, but it's okay. I expected not to meet my own expectations. In the meantime, I'm working hard on many things, writing a lot with my friend, drawing, coding and learning languages in my spare time.

Today I played Minecraft with a friend, oh how I long for Minecraft. We built a café connected to a publishing house.

I miss my free time, I could fill my days until the end of my life, time flies so quickly. I stay positive every day, I just need more sun and warmth.

Oh, and I posted my animation on yt. Here's link, it you want to see. Nothing special, but I'll share.

7.02.2025

Don’t allow the light to dim.

cut

Today I spent the whole day animating a short film.

My mom was at IKEA and bought me a monitor stand and bedding. You can't see much in the photo, but I wanted to show you just a little bit anyway.

19.02.2025

COYOTE

Im angry now, this anger is not violent. It’s like a parade and I don’t think many will understand what I am trying to say. Don’t fool yourself into thinking you are.

I let my ambition consume me, I want to be consumed and devoured. Since I won’t be held kindly.

Obviously I love, I thrive loving and taking care of someone. I love only people who need to be loved, not people who return it.

And you get used to this, obviously, you get patient, obviously, you lose hope, obviously. I fear that insanity creeps into my door. It’s night im especially not meant to be heard at night. Well, nobody is listening. All those layers of silence on silence.

Im gonna study, study and create, burn, so my mind will shut up properly.

It's funny. Thats all i have to offer.

100 Questions for Webmasters

Source

10.01.2025

1. Please introduce yourself.

I use many names and nicknames, call me whatever. Hi, welcome.

2. How long have you been making websites?

About a year now.

3. And what got you into the hobby?

I learned about Neocities from this video. I was very ill last year, because I had a lot of free time, I learned how to code.

4. What kind of website are you most interested in?

Mostly blogs from Neocities, and webrings.

5. What's your workflow? Do you plan your websites out thoroughly or do you come up with the design as you go along?

I sketch the layout in procreate, then spend hours just experimenting and figuring out how to bring what’s in my mind to life.

6. Please link to your biggest inspirations.

I find inspiration in countless things. I have links to cool sites on my links & resources page

Also here's a link to a good essay.

7. What's your favourite part about making websites?

I have a place devoted entirely to myself, where I can speak of my interests endlessly, my passion knows no restraint. And finding people who share the same interests brings me joy. Webrings, fanlistings...seeing someone linking my button.

8. And the thing you struggle with the most?

Lack of time.

9. Do you keep the same layout on all of your pages? Or do you use different ones?

I use diffrent ones.

10. How confident are you with CSS?

Decently.

11. Do you know how to correctly use <dl>?

I guess.

12. What is your favourite HTML element?

Table

13. If you're making a new web page from scratch, what is the first thing you do?

Copy cut filter wwwww.

14. Do you know JavaScript?

A little, enough to edit simple things.

15. How about PHP?

No

16. Does your website have a theme that you stick to?

Green...

17. Are you more focused on content or design?

Equally, maybe more on the design side.

18. Do you own a domain name? If not, would you ever want to?

No, maybe.

19. What do you think of nostalgia-focused or "retro" websites?

Oh, love...

Well, just look at my website.

20. Is your HTML valid? Do you even check?

Don't think it is, but eeh.

21. What are your opinion on buttons and banners?

:)

22. What do you think of button walls in particular?

It depends on the context. As a resource, it’s great. If it’s something displayed on a website, it should be done tastefully. But I don’t have strong opinions; what matters most is that you have fun.