On the Precipice of Defeat
26.11.2025
November.
This month I came of age. I got a lot of great things for my birthday, two Witcher games from a friend, a compendium of knowledge about coding and video game design and Moleskine notebook. My colleague from high school even came to visit me at university:)
Hmm, there are so many games I’d really like to play soon. At 18, I’m discovering Souls games for the first time. It started with Bloodborne and now Dark Souls, not forgetting Skyrim along the way, of course. I haven’t had a chance to play yet, so we’ll see if I’ll be just as excited once I get my ass kicked. What I’m most eager to play is Bloodborne, but since I don’t have a PlayStation, I’ll have to emulate it. There’s a song on the soundtrack I discovered today called “Moon Presence,” it’s so goooood!
I’m also saving up for a Steam Deck. Maybe I’ll get it; I’ve been trying to buy one for two years. Theoretically, I have the money, but it’s not easy to decide on such an expense.
In the meantime, I’m trying to get the last two achievements in Hades. I managed to transfer my save file from Epic to Steam, which makes it much easier now.

I haven’t had much time lately. I attend an art university, and practical classes can last from morning till night. I still can’t get used to the lack of time; I want to do so many things. Most of my life, I’ve been looking for ways to fill my time to the maximum so that I don’t have a single free moment to think. I hated being alone for long periods because my own presence overwhelmed me.
However, that changed during summer break. For the first time in my life, I had so much free time, and I now look back on it with an incredible amount of longing. Suddenly, I wanted free time, and just as suddenly, it was taken away. I met someone with whom I’d like to spend this free time.
November was a month of good movies; I watched a lot with my dear friend. Vampire Hunter D: Bloodlust and Angel’s Egg are my favourites, but we also saw The Nightmare Before Christmas, and now we’re watching Pirates of the Caribbean. I’m so glad I had the opportunity to watch Angel’s Egg with him. Yoshitaka Amano’s work always manages to captivate me. AHAHA Im sooo normal about this film. I’m also taking my colleague to the cinema since it’s coming out 4K remastered in December.
I bought the cutest keychain in the world.
Annnd Peak with friend
I’ve been drawing a lot, and that’s about it.